February 2012
1 post
The walking skeletons
I’ve been eating very few these 3 days, I’m having gastric disorder. It’s very common actually, the amount of acid in my stomach is overflowing. I couldn’t eat anything, I puked watery substance all day, and I even had seizure in the first day.
Mom thought I was bulimic, my friends told me I was too skinny it made me look like I’m an older person. It was horrible. I can’t get to eat my...
November 2011
6 posts
The Lonely Ginkgo Tree
beeforbunga:
You must have heard of Ginkgo trees. Ginkgo is probably my favorite tree ever. The name is in Japanese, but the tree itself is chinese.
Ginkgo biloba is a unique species of tree with no close living relatives. Ginkgo is a lonely tree. Maybe not lonely, but alone.
It has beautiful colors in autumn. Mamie showed me that she has one ginkgo tree. The shape of the leaves resemble...
“Ever tried. Ever failed. No matter. Try again. Fail again. Fail better.”
– Samuel Beckett (via saber-y-conocer)
HEY
It’s been ages since the last time i saw this pretty dash. Like any other Indonesian teens, I am currently concerning about my future, my college to be specific.
I’m applying for UPH (that stands for Pelita Harapan University), I’m writing an essay with the topic of ‘Why I Choose International Relations Major’ now. And I can’t think of anything. While writing...
October 2011
3 posts
If this was a lover-like relationship, this might be the end for all of us with hatred on one side and love in the other. Everybody knows what we were and what we are, but nobody knows what we are going to be. And it’s been sweet, so sweet. But I’m forced to over it and getting out of your lives, by you. I appreciate your decisions, and if that’s what you want, then be it. What I...
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Pursuing Education
First of all, hello there tumblr. It’s been awhile :)
Okay, here I am again talking about education *deep inhale*. So today was just similar to any other school days, except for me getting psychologically forced to accept the
fact that I am academically stupid.
I’m on my senior year, and currently in the search of my future college. And like the rest of those typical asian...
August 2011
18 posts
♥
“Pelukan//Lambaian”
Kerupuk
Mata kami berpagutan, berambisi menjatuhkan satu sama lain. Tak lama pandanganku memudar. Rupanya lapisan air tipis ini yang menghalangi, mendifusikan cahaya yang masuk ke mataku sehingga semuanya terlihat buram. Suram. Aku beranjak dari meja, tanpa menghiraukan lapisan air yang tertahan di mataku.
“Aku butuh tidur”
“Aku butuh kamu.”
“Aku butuh kerupuk! Sebenarnya...
“Malam kian menelan. Semuanya begitu gelap, hanya rumah besar bernuansa etnis itu...”
– your Lioness
“Boxer, bra, bruises”
“If I die clutching your photograph, don’t call me boring. It’s just...”
– yeah, like, LIKE you. I like you too much.
Sometimes I pity myself for not being typical to one of those girls. They’re cutey and giggly and stuffs. While the other girls are screaming, talking, and clapping on those dancing asian guys (not to be racist and all), I’ll probably sitting on the back of the class, taking 2 seats or 3 just for myself, reading a book and putting the music player on shuffle, with uncombed hair and...
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“I love you, Bimo Imbalo Rahmatullah”
– Adinda
Sajak Putih
Bersandar pada tari warna pelangi
Kau depanku bertudung sutra senja
Di hitam matamu kembang mawar dan melati
Hitam rambutmu mengalun bergelut senda
Sepi menyanyi, malam dalam mendoa tiba
Meriak muka air kolam jiwa
Dan dalam dadaku memerdu lagu
Menarik, menari seluruh aku
Hidup dari hidupku, pintu terbuka
Selama matamu bagiku menengadah
Selama kau darah mengalir dari luka
Antara kita,...
Aku, kamu, apa
Aku dan kamu, kita duduk termangu
“Hidup begitu tega, mencabik dan menggilas tanpa kenal lelah” pikirmu.
Aku dan kamu, membenam tangan dalam rindu
“Waktu begitu lincah, berlari dan melompat tanpa terkejar” pikirku.
“Aku tidak sekuat yang kau kira.” Ucapmu. “Kau kira aku sekuat apa?” Ucapku.
Dan kita berdua terjerembap dalam siklus...
July 2011
27 posts
Present
D: mending kasih apa ya pin? Aku sih mikirnya yg gimana gitu.
A: celana dalam macan.
Joy Of Freedom
plantingwisdom:
There is not fire like passion, No crime like hatred, No sorrow like separation, No sickness like hunger, And no joy like the joy of freedom
— Buddha, Dhammapada
Bloc Party - Blue Light
You’ll find it hiding in shadows You’ll find it hiding in cupboards It will walk you home safe every night It will help you remember If that’s way it is Then that’s the way it is I still feel you and the taste of cigarettes What could I ever run to Just tell me it’s tearing you apart Just tell me you cannot sleep And you didn’t even notice When the...
Overcoming 'arrogance'
I believe everyone was born in this world carrying nothing. Not even a string to cover one’s body, not even a knowledge to apply, not even a pence to spend. We hadn’t even known what to believe, not even such ‘matter’ we now claim as “God”. We were born as a fragile figure, knowing nothing. Carrying only it’s empty mind, body, and soul.
Sometimes...
translucentmind:
Instead of going to bed, I will just write until it is time to get up.
The best albums, your favorite albums, are the albums that you listen to at 2-3 AM, when your room is pitch black. You cannot see anything. But you can hear everything. The slightest changes in riffs, the intricacies of every drum beat. The layers of so many different sounds. There is no one to stir your...
6 Types of Love
howfreeitis:
Eros a passionate physical and emotional love based on aesthetic enjoyment; stereotype of romantic love
Ludus a love that is played as a game or sport; conquest; may have multiple partners at once
Storge an affectionate love that slowly develops from friendship, based on similarity
Pragma love that is driven by the head, not the heart
Mania obsessive love; experience great...
bi
D: Kalo tau aku bipolar, kamu bakal masih syg sama aku ga?
B: Suka sama cowo sama cewe?
B: Baleg?
D: Itu biseks -________-
D: Hahahaha, ini bipolar
B: HAHAHAHAHAHA
Anonymous asked: do you love your boyfriend so much? would you tell me how big your love to him?
